F1 final night, I didn't go to watch the race. Sitting on the grass, I was away from the track and buried myself with the roaring of the engines along with those hurting words from u. I could fight back, but I choose not to, cuz I know how hard u feel right now. I can only let u hurt me like this if it can make u feel better.

  When the race finished, your rage was almost diminished as well. Then came the concert. It's my favorite singer, Rihanna. I remember I post the song, "we found love," right after I met u, which means a lot to me. When I heard this song again in the live concert, I was so moved. "We found love in this hopeless place," just like I found u in this lonely planet. u r like a gift for me from god. But now, as to u, it seems that I only bring u sorrows and loneliness. I feel sad and worthless. 

  What can I do? What do u want? I keep thinking in vain...